Autism In Big Flashing Neon Letters

This is  Autism Awareness Month and before we can look forward we have to take a look back.   Flashback 5 years ago today Autism won.   When I think about that day I was so frustrated because I was trying to desperately get our son Johnny into specialized speech therapy to get the speech going.     I…

Autism Checklist ~ What You Need To Know

  Awareness brings understanding and understanding brings compassion. Originally shared April 16 2012  Source: Autism Checklist ~ What You Need To Know April is Autism Awareness Month and I think its important for friends and family to know what the symptoms of Autism look like to place someone on the autism spectrum. Yes at one…

Tears For Recess

*tissue warning* Last year….. “I feel alone Mommy…..” “Mommy I am not sure I like the south yard anymore. “. Last spring,  Johnny found out that after Grade 2 he would move from the little kids yard to the big kids yard.  He was so exited and this would make his little sister sad and worried…

Leading Each Other Out of the Dark

“Sitting back and watching this important friendship bloom in the face of Autism is absolutely heaven.”  * March 20 2014 “I never know when I am going to get the unexpected appearance of maturity or movement forward but when it happens I savour it for how special it is.” One of the best things I…

Riding The Emotional Rollercoaster of Meltdowns and Autism

I have been noticing that many people find my blog as they try to learn more about Autism and particularly  about the differences between meltdowns and tantrums.    I shared a  blog post from  four years ago on March 20 2013 about a moment in one day and how hard it can be:  “There is…

Ballet Class to be or not to be

We need to change everything up and to also somehow get this ballet adventure back on its wheels so that we can navigate what’s happening with Johnny as well. THIS matters to him so we need to somehow make sure that it matters to all of us as a family. What’s hard sometimes is that…

“I want to stay here” ~ Time To Go Back

“Mamma I want to stay here. Mamma I want to stay with baby. I done school.” It didn’t sound perfect but I understood what my little 4 year old boy was trying to convey to me.  School was hard.  Kindergarten was hard.  Being non-verbal in kindergarten was hard.  Being not understood at school was hard….

He’s a BAD boy

“He’s a BAD boy” the little girl in Johnny’s class says very loudly while we are all sitting around the lunch tables at the Pumpkin Patch farm. Silence. (…) Johnny is not doing these things just to be BAD. He is trying to communicate, get attention and sometimes he is stimming. It is time to…

Becoming The Big Brother

“This morning really early I heard our daughter saying “Johnny” really loud and I called out for her to back to sleep. I heard the flutter of little feet on the hard wood floor. She sleeps in a crib still. It seems that big brother wanted to play.” Originally posted on March 7 2012 Flash…

Love Me If I Am Purple

I’ve been thinking a lot about self care, loving oneself and self esteem and I keep thinking about how if you go through life finding so many situations confusing what does that do to your perceptions of who you are? It made me think about how at times my son expresses things he doesn’t like…

Pinning Down Autism

I think sometimes it’s hard pinning down what Autism looks like.   I remember when Johnny was two and he had lost the few words he could say and we were beginning to panic,  our family doctor kept saying we will have to get him evaluated for speech delay in a few months but don’t panic. “Sometimes boys…

Halloween Past Present and Future

  I want to BE a firetruck Mommy.” Johnny has always loved firetrucks since he was around two years old.  If we were at a playgroup he would zero in on the only firetruck in the whole room.  If we were visiting a farm with a big giant sandbox filled with diggers and dump trucks,…

Is A Name Important?

John or Johnny?  Princess, Johnny’s 3 year old little sister has been bringing this up a lot to me recently.  At her preschool some of the children class are calling her ***** and she has been telling her teachers and peers , “My name is Princess not *****.”  She has mentioned to me before when we have…

What I’d like to hear the most

Originally posted on Everything Under the Sun:
What did you do at school today? Did you have fun? What made you laugh? What did you not like? Who are you friends with? Why are you sad when I ask this question? We always feel like we are starving for any scraps of info about what…

An Innocent Question….do you want to play?

We were sitting at Johnny’s favourite spot in our neighbourhood, a plaza with a fountain and statue that he finds relaxing and peaceful.  We were approached by a little boy who says, “I know you.  You rode the school bus with me and you were in Mrs. …….. class.”  I had to get Johnny’s attention…

What Is It About Amusement Parks?

The need for speed, going fast, spinning, lights, colours, laughter and lots of movement. Even when he was a baby he loved being on the baby swings for an extended period of time and would cry if we took him out too soon.  We started taking Johnny on rides  at an amusement park when he…

“I want to stay here” ~ Time To Go Back

Like so many other parents when Spring Break is coming to a close they hear the words “I don’t wanna go back. I don’t want to go to school.” Johnny got very emotional if we mentioned school and would yell “no” but who knew the emotions and anxieties of returning to his school routine would…

First days of school

Johnny first days of school have gone really well. He was so excited to put on his school uniform and his back pack for the first time that he only got anxious and teary eyed when he started seeing some of classmates get very upset along with worried parents standing around the classroom and not…