Turtle Trouble

“My turtle is not working.  Fix it Daddy.” Its 1:30am in the middle of the night and Johnny is in our room.  Like most parents the first thing that comes to our minds as parents is he’s having a nightmare or he’s feeling sick. Our minds race as we try to come out of a…

Being A Toddler and Autism… “Step Into My Shoes”

  Its another day in Autism Awareness Month and I thought I’d share a post from that I’ve reblogged about Tantrums vs Meltdowns and how we experience it as a family.  When I look at the stats page on WordPress, the most often search for terms that brings people to my blog is meltdowns and…

I Feel Sad Mommy….I Feel Sad For Princess

Yesterday, Johnny’s little sister, Princess, had a playdate with two friends from preschool.  It  was a tumultuous time because the girls haven’t seen each other in 3 weeks because of sickness, travel and Spring Break.  They are also  3-1/2 and 4 and are still figuring out the social side of friendship and peer-to-peer play.  Things…

He Didn’t Get To Go Skating

What do you do when you find out that the ice skating field trip to the neighbourhood park around the corner from the school that your Autistic child was very excited about happened but he didn’t get to go? Well I went from being extremely angry to a part of me wanting to cry because…

We Are Going To Talk About Feelings….

Yesterday afternoon…. “We are now going to talk about our feellngs Johnny.  Remember last week we talked about how our engine can run fast, or slow or be just right?” Johnny is in his third session of a 8 week block of a combined OT / SLP therapy at the hospital’s child development centre.  They…

Tears For School

A week ago I am talking on the phone with my in-laws about the impending snow storm that was suppose to begin Thursday afternoon and continue overnight Friday. It sounded pretty bad so we could count on the school bus to be cancelled for the day but is the school going to be closed? We…

Hearts That Bind

Johnny has been having lots of fun at school playing with his friend Elise so I thought I’d help him out last Friday and include a special cookie for both of them to have at snack time. The Educational Assistant wrote: “such a big smile on his face as he gave it to her.” I…

Why Are You Crying?

Why are you crying?  Why are you sad? I see tears and when we have tears it means we are sad.  Who made you sad?  Did somebody make you sad? Did somebody hurt your feelings?  What is it sweetie? Was it a girl or a boy that made you sad?  Please try and use your…

It’s Okay To Feel Sad

The other day, Johnny had a “sad” day. It seems that he is only now dealing with how he feels about Daddy going away and traveling on business. While riding the subway to his ABA playgroup with Daddy he kept rubbing his eyes and covering them trying to fight back the tears and stop himself…

Bumps, Emptiness and Fond Memories

    Navigating along the journey of grief is full of bumps, emptiness and fond memories but definitely more challenging when experiencing it with a child by your side. More complex when that child also has autism and the loved one was more then “Grandpa” (Wampa) but a caregiver, friend, buddy, helper, caregiver, hair ruffler,…

Are You Sad? “Shh!”

I opened up Johnny’s daily log book 2 days ago and read that he was sad at school and cried when he was in the bathroom with his EA and later when he dropped his snack on the floor at snack time. I asked him about being sad at school and he said “Momma….Momma….shhh!” and…